"In their hearts humans plan their course, but the Lord establishes their steps."-Proverbs 16:9
I've learned to be pretty flexible. I'm not a very rigid or structured person, I'd like to say I'm more of a go with the flow kind of girl. God has constantly shown me that giving up control and trusting Him to work everything out is definitely the way to go and I've tried to do that. Sometimes though, I get frustrated.
This summer, my plan was to go on a summer project with a ministry called Cru. I was going to work with homeless people, children and victims of sex trafficking. I was pretty excited. If you know me, you'll know that those are some things I'm pretty passionate about. I had given up my desires to go to Africa again and had gotten pretty excited to show God's love in the inner city. I got to go to Chicago this spring break and I absolutely loved it! I love kids and people in the city and I was so pumped to spend my summer getting out of my comfort zone and doing new things.
Then, a few weeks ago, I got the news that my project had been cancelled. There weren't enough participants apparently. I was pretty upset. I had really been looking forward to this and I didn't understand why God would take it away from me. Now I had absolutely no plans and no idea what to do for the summer.
Over the past year I've been helping out with a Sunday night children's ministry at my church in Clemson. I absolutely love it! The kids are so awesome and I've been learning right along with them. I decided to mention my now lack of plans to the lady who helps run things and wouldn't you know it she had tons of ideas for things I could do in the summer right here in Clemson! I got pretty excited but I wasn't sure if I'd actually be able to stay here and figure out housing and all that.
Later that day I was talking with my best friend who's currently in Singapore studying abroad. Some of her plans had fallen through as well and it turns out she was planning on staying in Clemson as well and had a place where we could live! God was just dropping things into place!
I still needed to figure out a job though. I interviewed to be a co-leader of the summer kid's ministry program at my church in Clemson. After a few more weeks I found out that I got the job! I am so excited to work with these kids I have gotten to know over the past year and I am going to be able to see how kid's ministry is run at a church. The lady in charge wants me to get a chance to learn a lot of different aspects of ministry and help me get plugged in with the community and local non-profit ministries.
Now I am going to be able to stay in Clemson for the summer with my best friend, work at a job I'm really excited about, make some money, go on the family vacations I would have missed out on if I had gone on my project and grow in my relationship with God through it all!
This was not how I had planned to spend my summer but it just shows that God has His own plans and they are amazing! I cannot wait to see what He's going to show me over the summer! :)
Thursday, May 17, 2012
Thursday, April 19, 2012
Break My Heart With What Breaks Yours
I just love how God completely does things in His own timing regardless of our expectations. I was able to attend two amazing Christian conference over Christmas break (Encounter and Passion) and while they were amazing I was not as affected as I had hoped I would be. I wanted to be broken and changed. I wanted to be truly affected by everything I saw, but I wasn't. Not emotionally anyway.
A big focus of Encounter was missions, something that usually makes me basically explode with emotions and desires. I usually want to just leave college and go live in a hut in Africa whenever I hear a challenge to do missions. But that didn't happen this year. Don't get me wrong, I still wanted to go but it didn't affect me on an emotional level. Passion was really centered on ending human trafficking. In the past that has been something I have really had a heart for, but for some reason even with all the stories and videos I just couldn't feel it. I know that our lives should not be based on our emotions, but I'm still someone who wants my heart to break with what breaks the heart of Christ, to feel what others feel. So it was really bothering me that I wasn't being affected. I tried worshipping, praying, sharing...every thing I could think of, but nothing seemed to help. The only time I felt any sort of real emotion was when I was able to give out boxes of love in Greensboro and when I got the chance to have a short conversation with a sweet, older women in downtown Atlanta. We only talked for a minute or two and we didn't get into any deep, spiritual conversations but I just felt an unexplainable joy in that moment. At Encounter, we participate in a "day of faith" where we were able to go out into the community and give needy families a box of food and talk with them.
There was one woman in particular who stuck out to me. Her name was Janette and the only reason I got to meet her was because God has a beautiful, perfect plan. My group finished handing out our boxes early so we went back to check in. Then we were asked if we wanted to help hand out the extra boxes left over. We agreed and ended up talking to a few other people before two people in my group saw Janette outside of her house cleaning off her rugs, we almost missed her because we had knocked on another door but no one ever answered. Janette is 50 years old and had moved into the neighborhood about a year and a half ago. She told us about how her life had gobe downhill since she had moved there. She had gotten into the wrong crowd and started using drugs and her son was in prison. She told us she had been in jail 4 times and was considering checking into rehab because she was trying to turn her life around but she kept getting pulled back in with all of her old influences.
Interestingly enough, the women we had spoken with before Janette claimed to be a Christian and seemed like she truly did love the Lord. She told us she mostly kept to herself and went to church. While explaining to us how Jesus was a part of her life she said "when you feel the Spirit you move! Wherever you are you move!" I thought this was so awesome, but I just wish she would "move" right next door and
help Janette. She could bring her to church and really be a wonderful, Godly influence on her. It makes me wonder how often we unknowingly ignore those around us. The very ones who need Christ the most! How often we fill our time with Christian activities and Christian friends while neglecting to serve and pour into those around us. I know that I am extremely guilty of this. So often I focus on my own needs and make myself "feel good" through the Christian groups and Bible studies I am a part of when I should be taking all that I have been blessed with and pouring myself out for others.
I am so blessed by God and I need to be smacked in the face with that knowledge more often. I don't want to live apathetically or try to do it on my own. I want to be fully relying on God, living completely for Him every single day! I just pray for more reminders of that and the ability to truly live it out.
A big focus of Encounter was missions, something that usually makes me basically explode with emotions and desires. I usually want to just leave college and go live in a hut in Africa whenever I hear a challenge to do missions. But that didn't happen this year. Don't get me wrong, I still wanted to go but it didn't affect me on an emotional level. Passion was really centered on ending human trafficking. In the past that has been something I have really had a heart for, but for some reason even with all the stories and videos I just couldn't feel it. I know that our lives should not be based on our emotions, but I'm still someone who wants my heart to break with what breaks the heart of Christ, to feel what others feel. So it was really bothering me that I wasn't being affected. I tried worshipping, praying, sharing...every thing I could think of, but nothing seemed to help. The only time I felt any sort of real emotion was when I was able to give out boxes of love in Greensboro and when I got the chance to have a short conversation with a sweet, older women in downtown Atlanta. We only talked for a minute or two and we didn't get into any deep, spiritual conversations but I just felt an unexplainable joy in that moment. At Encounter, we participate in a "day of faith" where we were able to go out into the community and give needy families a box of food and talk with them.
There was one woman in particular who stuck out to me. Her name was Janette and the only reason I got to meet her was because God has a beautiful, perfect plan. My group finished handing out our boxes early so we went back to check in. Then we were asked if we wanted to help hand out the extra boxes left over. We agreed and ended up talking to a few other people before two people in my group saw Janette outside of her house cleaning off her rugs, we almost missed her because we had knocked on another door but no one ever answered. Janette is 50 years old and had moved into the neighborhood about a year and a half ago. She told us about how her life had gobe downhill since she had moved there. She had gotten into the wrong crowd and started using drugs and her son was in prison. She told us she had been in jail 4 times and was considering checking into rehab because she was trying to turn her life around but she kept getting pulled back in with all of her old influences.
Interestingly enough, the women we had spoken with before Janette claimed to be a Christian and seemed like she truly did love the Lord. She told us she mostly kept to herself and went to church. While explaining to us how Jesus was a part of her life she said "when you feel the Spirit you move! Wherever you are you move!" I thought this was so awesome, but I just wish she would "move" right next door and
help Janette. She could bring her to church and really be a wonderful, Godly influence on her. It makes me wonder how often we unknowingly ignore those around us. The very ones who need Christ the most! How often we fill our time with Christian activities and Christian friends while neglecting to serve and pour into those around us. I know that I am extremely guilty of this. So often I focus on my own needs and make myself "feel good" through the Christian groups and Bible studies I am a part of when I should be taking all that I have been blessed with and pouring myself out for others.
I am so blessed by God and I need to be smacked in the face with that knowledge more often. I don't want to live apathetically or try to do it on my own. I want to be fully relying on God, living completely for Him every single day! I just pray for more reminders of that and the ability to truly live it out.
God Is All I've Ever Wanted and More!
He loves me unconditionally
He knows me deeply, intimately and completely
He wants to be with me
He understands and accepts me, I can always be real with Him
He desires and pursues and treasures me
He will always be there for me, He'll never leave
He can comfort me like no one else
He loves me even when I mess up
He loves me more than I could ever love Him, even though He is so much more worthy
He can give me true peace
He is my refuge and my rock, my protector
He will never cause me stress or worry
He is one is who's love I can be completely secure
He thinks I'm beautiful and special
He shows me how much He loves me everyday, with sunsets and flowers and answered prayers
He gave up everything for me
He wants me to truly know Him as deeply as I can
He can completely satisfy me and give me all I need
He will never disappoint me
He delights in me when I serve Him
He wants me all to Himself
He has no comparison
He saved me!
He offers me true joy, peace, acceptance and love
He is constant and never-changing
He fights for me
He knows what I need before I even ask
He wants to talk to me all the time
He doesn't need me to complete Him, but He wants me
He will never be surprised by something I have done or will do
He will never betray or reject me, I can trust Him completely
He wants me to be obsessed with Him
He is always up for an adventure
He took the initiative with me
He will make me happier than anyone or anything else
He loves His creation like I do, He made my favorite flower and created my favorite color
He paints me a sunrise and sunset every day and delights in beauty with me
He is heart broken for the things that break my heart, like injustice and poverty and those who do not know Him
He has the ultimate heart for missions and the outcasts
He challenges me and makes me think
He wants to spend everyday with me for the rest of eternity
He will never make me wonder how He feels
He will make me want more of Him
He is strong, secure, satisfying, protective, loving, righteous, patient, good and perfect!
He knows me deeply, intimately and completely
He wants to be with me
He understands and accepts me, I can always be real with Him
He desires and pursues and treasures me
He will always be there for me, He'll never leave
He can comfort me like no one else
He loves me even when I mess up
He loves me more than I could ever love Him, even though He is so much more worthy
He can give me true peace
He is my refuge and my rock, my protector
He will never cause me stress or worry
He is one is who's love I can be completely secure
He thinks I'm beautiful and special
He shows me how much He loves me everyday, with sunsets and flowers and answered prayers
He gave up everything for me
He wants me to truly know Him as deeply as I can
He can completely satisfy me and give me all I need
He will never disappoint me
He delights in me when I serve Him
He wants me all to Himself
He has no comparison
He saved me!
He offers me true joy, peace, acceptance and love
He is constant and never-changing
He fights for me
He knows what I need before I even ask
He wants to talk to me all the time
He doesn't need me to complete Him, but He wants me
He will never be surprised by something I have done or will do
He will never betray or reject me, I can trust Him completely
He wants me to be obsessed with Him
He is always up for an adventure
He took the initiative with me
He will make me happier than anyone or anything else
He loves His creation like I do, He made my favorite flower and created my favorite color
He paints me a sunrise and sunset every day and delights in beauty with me
He is heart broken for the things that break my heart, like injustice and poverty and those who do not know Him
He has the ultimate heart for missions and the outcasts
He challenges me and makes me think
He wants to spend everyday with me for the rest of eternity
He will never make me wonder how He feels
He will make me want more of Him
He is strong, secure, satisfying, protective, loving, righteous, patient, good and perfect!
Monday, October 10, 2011
Christianity
"Therefore let us be grateful for receiving a kingdom that cannot be shaken, and thus let us offer to God acceptable worship, with reverence and awe, for our God is a consuming fire." (Hebrews 12:28-29)
I think when we stop looking at Christianity as being something that we deserve, something that God "owes" us, we'll start to see how mind-blowingly awesome Christ is! We don't deserve heaven. John Piper said, "There was no redemptive plan for the fallen angels. There did not have to be one for us either. Tremble with thankfulness." Many of us have never stopped to think about that fact that the very idea that we are offered the gift of salvation is crazy! We did absolutely nothing to deserve it! In fact, every single day we do things that should really take us out of the running for ever getting a chance at heaven! But how AMAZING is it that we are not what we've done. We are not defined by our mistakes, our struggles, our pain, our fears...we are defined by what Christ has done for us! He took every single mistake, however big or small (because even a white lie or a wrong thought condemns us in the judgement of a perfect, holy God), we made and would ever make and bore the punishment for us! He was brutally tortured and killed and more importantly, separated from His father for the first time in all of eternity, so that we could be forgiven and be with Him forever! So that we could have a chance at salvation!
So many people want to become Christians so that they can go to heaven or, more accurately, not go to hell. But honestly, we should be falling on our faces worshipping Christ even if we weren't given heaven in the end! Because He is STILL amazing! He is still the flipping creator of the universe who made all of us and allows to live each day! The fact that we also get to spend eternity with Him is just beyond awesome! So do we worship Him for His glory, because HE is worthy? Or because we think it benefits us?
Ultimate Love Story
"But now thus says the Lord, he who created you, O Jacob, he who formed you, O Israel: Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name, you are mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you; when you walk through the fire you shall not be burned, and the flame shall not consume you. For I am the Lord your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior. I give Egypt as your ransom, Cush and Seba in exchange for you. Because you are precious in my eyes, and honored, and I love you, I give men in return for you, peoples in exchange for your life." (Isaiah 43:1-4)
I've always had the same dream as almost every little girl: to be rescued. I've always wanted someone to fight for me. To look at me and think "she's worth it" and then do whatever it takes to get me. To know me and all of my weird quirks and habits, all of the things I do that even I can't understand, to see all of me and to completely accept it. To want me just the way I am. I've looked for that my whole life. I looked to my friends, to boys, to everything except to the One who could actually satisfy me. The One who desires me and pursues me and thinks I'm lovely. He wants me and He always has!
It's the ultimate romance story! Here's the one who had everything, all the glory and power anyone could ever ask for. He needed nothing, no one could add to His completeness. Yet, He wants you and me! He desires and pursues us! He gave up everything, all that He had so that He could save us and we could be with Him forever! I mean isn't that every girl's dream? To have someone love you so much that nothing can keep them from you? That they'll risk everything to save you? And the craziest thing is, He chose this path, knowing full well that many of those He loved so dearly would reject Him. Leslie Ludy says, "Christ loved us without expecting us to love Him in return. As He lay dying on the cross, those He had come to save were mocking Him and spitting in His face. Can we love Him the way He loved us? Can we surrender everything to Him without expecting anything in return?" Fight for God's presence! Look to Him and Him alone to satisfy, because He's the only one who can! We are made in the image of Christ, so our purest desires are reflections of His desires. He wants to be loved and respected, longed for and pursued, trusted and hoped in! He wants to be our everything!
Will we pursue Him the way we long to be fought for? The way He fights for us?
I've always had the same dream as almost every little girl: to be rescued. I've always wanted someone to fight for me. To look at me and think "she's worth it" and then do whatever it takes to get me. To know me and all of my weird quirks and habits, all of the things I do that even I can't understand, to see all of me and to completely accept it. To want me just the way I am. I've looked for that my whole life. I looked to my friends, to boys, to everything except to the One who could actually satisfy me. The One who desires me and pursues me and thinks I'm lovely. He wants me and He always has!
It's the ultimate romance story! Here's the one who had everything, all the glory and power anyone could ever ask for. He needed nothing, no one could add to His completeness. Yet, He wants you and me! He desires and pursues us! He gave up everything, all that He had so that He could save us and we could be with Him forever! I mean isn't that every girl's dream? To have someone love you so much that nothing can keep them from you? That they'll risk everything to save you? And the craziest thing is, He chose this path, knowing full well that many of those He loved so dearly would reject Him. Leslie Ludy says, "Christ loved us without expecting us to love Him in return. As He lay dying on the cross, those He had come to save were mocking Him and spitting in His face. Can we love Him the way He loved us? Can we surrender everything to Him without expecting anything in return?" Fight for God's presence! Look to Him and Him alone to satisfy, because He's the only one who can! We are made in the image of Christ, so our purest desires are reflections of His desires. He wants to be loved and respected, longed for and pursued, trusted and hoped in! He wants to be our everything!
Will we pursue Him the way we long to be fought for? The way He fights for us?
Wednesday, August 3, 2011
The End of This Adventure
Wow. I cannot believe it's all over. I flew out of JoBurg Saturday, into Amsterdam Sunday and picked up a nose ring on the way out :) , then into Atlanta that night and drove home to South Carolina Monday. Everything has gone by way too fast! I really cannot believe it's over. I can't believe I won't be with my team every day anymore. I can't believe they're driving to Mozambique. I can't believe I have said goodbye to everyone. I can't believe I'm back home in my room while they're off continuing to travel the world (and Arkansas in Lauren's case). It all seems so surreal!
I'm still processing so much and I feel like I have so much more to learn! I was not ready to leave! But even though I was not ready, that did not change the fact that my time was done. I don't want to be done!
But I am and I can't try to hold on to the past. I need to embrace all the opportunities and awesome things I have to look forward to now. I have learned so much and grown so much in who I am in Christ and all the amazing things He has for me. I've gained incredible friends, people I will never forget! They have shaped me and helped me become who I am. I love who I have become! I love what God has shown me! I am so incredibly grateful for the experience I was blessed with! I love Jesus, He is seriously beyond amazing! :)
There is so much to think about! I didn't want to say goodbye! I've spent every single day for the past month with these people and now they're out of my life for a pretty extended period of time. They will constantly be in my thoughts and prayers, but it will be hard not having them pour into me every day. Not being around Birdy's wisdom and sweet heart, Chelsea's craziness and Godly wisdom, Bri's joy and love and incredible personality, Misty's loving personality and servant's heart, Kasey's wisdom and joy and fun spirit, Steve's hilariousness and worshipful heart, Justin's leadership and Godly heart and encouraging wisdom, Lauren's incredible love and joy and sweet heart and Godly wisdom, and Kristen's craziness and joy and love! Not to mention the other team I was with! I just don't know what I'm going to do without these people! I'll miss their music in my life (including actual music!) but I am so thankful for the time I had with them! And I hope and pray that I'll see a lot more of them in the future as well!
But I cling to the promise that Jesus is forever constant in my life. He puts people in my life to come and go and to mold me into who I am meant to be, but He stays with me forever! That is an extremely comforting fact in light of all this change! I love my Jesus! :) My God is so good, so string and so mighty there's nothing my God cannot do! Isn't it great how children's songs usually express things so simply and so well? :)
I just cannot even express how I feel or all that God has done in my life! I'm terrible at summarizing! :) This means that there will most likely be a lot more blogs in the near future consisting of me attempting to figure out things that God is doing in my life, so feel free to read them or just let me work out my crazy beautiful life on my own :)
Again, I cannot thank everyone enough for supporting me, praying for me, loving me and encouraging me!
Prayer Requests:
-Continued growth for me! I want to apply all that I've learned to my life and not forget any of it now that I'm home
-My team is traveling to Mozambique at the moment (as far as I know at least, internet is a bit lacking where they are), which means 2-5 days on a bus and lots of border crossing so pray for safe, smooth travel and safety in Mozambique as well. They'll be in a pretty dangerous area! If you want to follow their blogs, and they are pretty amazing people so I'd consider it, here they are: http://mistyanderson.theworldrace.org/ http://briannaarnold.theworldrace.org/ http://stevenchun.theworldrace.org/ http://kaseybrinson.theworldrace.org/ http://berdienephraim.theworldrace.org/ http://justinwarren.theworldrace.org/ http://chelseabrunts.theworldrace.org/
"There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens:
a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot,
a time to kill and a time to heal, a time to tear down and a time to build,
a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance,
a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them, a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,
a time to search and a time to give up, a time to keep and a time to throw away,
a time to tear and a time to mend, a time to be silent and a time to speak,
a time to love and a time to hate, a time for war and a time for peace."
-Ecclesiastes 3:1-8
"Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever."
-Hebrews 13:8
I'm still processing so much and I feel like I have so much more to learn! I was not ready to leave! But even though I was not ready, that did not change the fact that my time was done. I don't want to be done!
But I am and I can't try to hold on to the past. I need to embrace all the opportunities and awesome things I have to look forward to now. I have learned so much and grown so much in who I am in Christ and all the amazing things He has for me. I've gained incredible friends, people I will never forget! They have shaped me and helped me become who I am. I love who I have become! I love what God has shown me! I am so incredibly grateful for the experience I was blessed with! I love Jesus, He is seriously beyond amazing! :)
There is so much to think about! I didn't want to say goodbye! I've spent every single day for the past month with these people and now they're out of my life for a pretty extended period of time. They will constantly be in my thoughts and prayers, but it will be hard not having them pour into me every day. Not being around Birdy's wisdom and sweet heart, Chelsea's craziness and Godly wisdom, Bri's joy and love and incredible personality, Misty's loving personality and servant's heart, Kasey's wisdom and joy and fun spirit, Steve's hilariousness and worshipful heart, Justin's leadership and Godly heart and encouraging wisdom, Lauren's incredible love and joy and sweet heart and Godly wisdom, and Kristen's craziness and joy and love! Not to mention the other team I was with! I just don't know what I'm going to do without these people! I'll miss their music in my life (including actual music!) but I am so thankful for the time I had with them! And I hope and pray that I'll see a lot more of them in the future as well!
But I cling to the promise that Jesus is forever constant in my life. He puts people in my life to come and go and to mold me into who I am meant to be, but He stays with me forever! That is an extremely comforting fact in light of all this change! I love my Jesus! :) My God is so good, so string and so mighty there's nothing my God cannot do! Isn't it great how children's songs usually express things so simply and so well? :)
I just cannot even express how I feel or all that God has done in my life! I'm terrible at summarizing! :) This means that there will most likely be a lot more blogs in the near future consisting of me attempting to figure out things that God is doing in my life, so feel free to read them or just let me work out my crazy beautiful life on my own :)
Again, I cannot thank everyone enough for supporting me, praying for me, loving me and encouraging me!
Prayer Requests:
-Continued growth for me! I want to apply all that I've learned to my life and not forget any of it now that I'm home
-My team is traveling to Mozambique at the moment (as far as I know at least, internet is a bit lacking where they are), which means 2-5 days on a bus and lots of border crossing so pray for safe, smooth travel and safety in Mozambique as well. They'll be in a pretty dangerous area! If you want to follow their blogs, and they are pretty amazing people so I'd consider it, here they are: http://mistyanderson.theworldrace.org/ http://briannaarnold.theworldrace.org/ http://stevenchun.theworldrace.org/ http://kaseybrinson.theworldrace.org/ http://berdienephraim.theworldrace.org/ http://justinwarren.theworldrace.org/ http://chelseabrunts.theworldrace.org/
"There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens:
a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot,
a time to kill and a time to heal, a time to tear down and a time to build,
a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance,
a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them, a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,
a time to search and a time to give up, a time to keep and a time to throw away,
a time to tear and a time to mend, a time to be silent and a time to speak,
a time to love and a time to hate, a time for war and a time for peace."
-Ecclesiastes 3:1-8
"Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever."
-Hebrews 13:8
A Prayer From My Time in Swaziland
God you are so awesome! I am so sorry for not recognizing that more and acting accordingly! You have done so much for me! Thank you for always being there for me! For being faithful when I am faithless! Thank you for your word so we can learn who you are and how we should live! Consume me with a desire for you! A hunger for your word! There is SO much to learn and I WANT to learn it! I want to grow in my knowledge of you! I want to become more like you!
God I want your fullness, your presence! I selfishly want you to do something crazy awesome through me or in me!
Thank you for these people God! Thank you for their willingness and desire to pray over me and each other. It is amazing and such a powerful experience! Thank you for it! Thank you for breaking me out of my shell, for giving me new boldness and taking away my fears! Thank you for who you are!
Reveal all that you have for me! Speak through me, use me! I want to play my small part in your incredible drama! I want to be free of all guilt and shame and pain. I want to let it all go and let nothing hold me back from the plans you have for me. I want to be completely open to you! Free from all bondage and embracing all truth! Continue to break me down so you can build me up into the woman you desire me to be! I know that you are in control and you will work every single circumstance in my life for something greater-even if I cannot see it now or never really see it in this life. I want to be a light in the darkness. I want the fullness of the power you have for me, the fullness of your presence. Let NOTHING stand in my way!
Fill me. Give me revelations. Awaken gifts in me! I want to see you work in crazy ways! I want a crazy fire, an inexpressible joy, a freedom in you! And I want to take all of this with me as I return home and return to school. Let me not forget all the things that are of you!
Thank you for the boldness you have given me. Thank you for who you are! I just love you! Thank you for changing me and growing me in you. Continue to transform my life and mold me into who you desire for me to become. You are amazing! I am only who I am because of you and your grace!
I want to worship you for who you are, not with an agenda. How dare I ask you for me than you have already given? Is your Son not enough? Is eternal life with you not enough? Are you not enough? But you are! You are all that I need. You are my heart's desire! When I pray and ask for the desires of my heart, I receive them because I receive more of YOU!!! I desire to fall more and more in love with you!
God I want your fullness, your presence! I selfishly want you to do something crazy awesome through me or in me!
Thank you for these people God! Thank you for their willingness and desire to pray over me and each other. It is amazing and such a powerful experience! Thank you for it! Thank you for breaking me out of my shell, for giving me new boldness and taking away my fears! Thank you for who you are!
Reveal all that you have for me! Speak through me, use me! I want to play my small part in your incredible drama! I want to be free of all guilt and shame and pain. I want to let it all go and let nothing hold me back from the plans you have for me. I want to be completely open to you! Free from all bondage and embracing all truth! Continue to break me down so you can build me up into the woman you desire me to be! I know that you are in control and you will work every single circumstance in my life for something greater-even if I cannot see it now or never really see it in this life. I want to be a light in the darkness. I want the fullness of the power you have for me, the fullness of your presence. Let NOTHING stand in my way!
Fill me. Give me revelations. Awaken gifts in me! I want to see you work in crazy ways! I want a crazy fire, an inexpressible joy, a freedom in you! And I want to take all of this with me as I return home and return to school. Let me not forget all the things that are of you!
Thank you for the boldness you have given me. Thank you for who you are! I just love you! Thank you for changing me and growing me in you. Continue to transform my life and mold me into who you desire for me to become. You are amazing! I am only who I am because of you and your grace!
I want to worship you for who you are, not with an agenda. How dare I ask you for me than you have already given? Is your Son not enough? Is eternal life with you not enough? Are you not enough? But you are! You are all that I need. You are my heart's desire! When I pray and ask for the desires of my heart, I receive them because I receive more of YOU!!! I desire to fall more and more in love with you!
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